Chapter 188: Mutual Torture

at bastard's better"Jian Tong was still in a daze, her pale face flushed from the kiss. Before she could recover, she heard Shen Xiu Jin ask with a cold and frosty expression."Huh""What's the matter S...A silent person is more frightening than a noisy one.

"Let go, Shen... ah!" The words were cut short, completely swallowed by her throat. There was no need to say them aloud.

He was acting insane, tossing her onto the bed and attacking her repeatedly, as if holding her close was the only way he could feel her warmth, the only way he could sense that she was still by his side, that she hadn't left.

A grand drama of love, no one is truly satisfied. She lies on the bed like a broken doll, her limbs limp and lifeless, while he pants heavily, his breaths deep and animalistic, escaping his throat in ragged gasps.

She didn't look at him, she just stared at the ceiling, unwilling to meet his gaze.

The man on her stirred, propped himself up with his arms, and stood up from her. It was obvious that she felt lighter, and then the bed beneath her also seemed lighter. He got out of bed, the usually composed man even neglecting his shoes, barefoot, he strode to the dressing table, pulled open a drawer, and took out a bottle of medicine.

He strode to the bedside and stretched out his arm: "Aren't you going to take your medicine"

"You..." She was momentarily flustered.

He immediately sneered, "Vitamin pills, right" His thin lips slowly curved into an arc, devoid of any human warmth. With his other empty hand, he twisted open the bottle cap. His pitch-black pupils stared straight at the woman in front of him. As his palm turned, a handful of pills spilled out. The curve of his thin lips grew wider, while the coldness intensified.

He looked up, a handful of pills in his palm. He shoved them all into his mouth and swallowed dozens of them in front of her.

Her pupils contracted suddenly, she didn't have time to consider anything else, or think it through. She almost pounced on him, grabbing his arm: "Don't! You can't eat!"

"Why can't I eat Aren't these vitamin pills" He laughed, a mirthless smile. "You can eat them, can't you"

"I, I..." What was 'I' What could she say That it wasn't a vitamin pill

He chewed the pills in his mouth, lowering his gaze to look at this woman. Each pill was intensely bitter, let alone a whole handful. He seemed to feel no bitterness from the overwhelming flavor filling his mouth. It wasn't as if he were swallowing extremely bitter pills; he was simply chewing them like gum, feeling nothing.

Jian Tong opened her mouth several times, wanting to say something, but she found that she couldn't say anything.

She stared at his throat, watching each swallow. He was still chewing on the pill, and a tightness grew in her chest, an ache she couldn't explain. She tilted her head up, meeting his eyes: "Spit it out."

“Why spit it out Is Tongtong being so stingy She won't even share these vitamins with me I’ll buy you more after I finish.” He still cooed and petted her, but his eyes held pain, and his chest felt as if it were ripped apart by invisible hands, a sound of tearing like “siss siss” echoed in the silence. He tried to ignore it. He thought, at least this woman still couldn't bear to see him harmed; otherwise, she wouldn’t care even if he swallowed poison… It was ironic that he had just realized this was his last remaining bargaining chip!

That's just it!

It was because of this...

She said, "It's not good to take too many vitamin pills. Just spit them out, okay"

That's exactly why!

It's because of this...

He said, “Good.” All those words he’d prepared to say were now tucked away in his heart. He continued to pretend nothing was amiss.

He spat out the remnants of the vitamin tablet, furrowed his brows, and feigned a taste test. "This vitamin tablet doesn't taste good. Next time, don't eat it either. I'll get you a new one."

Her face changed suddenly, she almost snatched the bottle of medicine from his hand, then explained to him unnaturally: "I like this taste, let me finish this one first."

He suddenly touched her lower back, and she stiffened all over, her face even more unnatural: “Don’t touch me!”

She was almost shouting. Her eyes betrayed a deep pain and humiliation.

"You're saying it's just a coincidence that my kidney would fit in there"

Jian Tong's face paled, and she recoiled backward. "What do you mean" she asked, her eyes fixed on the man before her with suspicion.

"If in this world, there's a trade of one thing for another, then tell me, if I were to give you my kidney, could you give me something else"

He looked at her with soft eyes.

And Jian Tong, his whole body turned cold, “Don’t play anymore… please don’t play anymore, okay Didn’t we say we would live well together We should live well, live well. Please don’t make this kind of joke anymore, and please don’t think about these things anymore.”

She still thought he had come up with a new way to torment her. And she... was afraid.

Shen Xiujin listened to Jian Tong's words, listening to her say "Let's live well," he wanted to laugh, but also wanted to cry... Heaven pity, the once invincible Shen Xiujin, could also have such contradictory human emotions.

"Alright, you said we should get along well, then let's get along well." He pressed her head into his shoulder, where she couldn't see, his left hand clenched tightly into a fist...

"Child... how is it that you don't ask, if I were to give you my kidney, what it is that I would want in return Don't you wonder what it is that I desire" He whispered softly into her ear.

I could clearly feel the stiffness of the woman in my arms.

"Don't make a fuss, okay This joke isn't funny at all."

He listened to her evasively dodging the question, making excuses left and right. He chuckled softly, his eyes softening even more, a touch of pain flashing through the softness. He spoke in a low voice, "Fine, let's not play this silly game anymore."

"Vitamin pills...we're not going to take them, okay" Shen Xiujin saw out of the corner of his eye that even though he had her in his arms, she was still clutching the bottle tightly. He thought, if she could compromise this time, he would immediately donate half of his personal assets to society. The other half would be used to support her and their children, it would be enough.

Time seemed to stand still. A few seconds passed, yet it felt like an entire century. He waited with bated breath.

Only then did he realize he had become obsessed with this woman.

"Eat this bottle... Don't waste it."

Boom!

The wall in my heart, has crumbled!

She still had to eat those damn "vitamins"!

Where is she going to eat "vitamin pills"! She just doesn't want to have children for him! She just can't love him anymore! She just wants to draw a line between them!

Shen Xiujin gently pushed the woman in his arms away, lightly taking the medicine bottle from her hand. She was anxious, and he comforted her with a smile, then poured out another pill, pinched it between his lips, and put it in his own thin lips. Under her stunned gaze, he hugged her head, his thin lips blocking hers.

Bitterness, from his lips, traveled into her mouth.

At this moment, Jian Tong pressed his left chest tightly, as if doing so could alleviate the pain that was about to pour out of his chest.

For a moment, she was lost, wondering if she had made the wrong decision.

But it was just a fleeting moment, her eyes were filled with unwavering determination... He was her calamity, they shouldn't have been involved! She was right!

This kiss, bitter and long-lasting, still carried a touch of indescribable excitement. However, neither party noticed this faint spark within their hearts, letting it remain unseen.

He effortlessly disarmed her, a soft smile playing on his lips. Really, when he smiled, he was incredibly handsome. It was just that with his beautiful face, he usually kept a cool and distant demeanor towards people.

"He rubbed her hair with his big hand: "Okay, I'll listen to you. We won't waste this bottle, but after you eat it, we won't eat this brand of 'vitamin pills' anymore, okay"

As night fell

A bed for two, a man and a woman.

Jian Tong looked at the man beside her... He knew, didn't he

I know that's not a vitamin pill.

So angry, he grabbed her and ran upstairs.

But if he knew, why did he compromise in the end

She racked her brains, but she couldn't figure it out. She shook her head and decided not to think about it anymore.

It's just the people around her that make her increasingly agitated and upset.

I don't understand him more and more, and I don't get him anymore.

He made her restless, filled her with a mixture of hatred and...pain! She refused to admit that hate stemmed from love. Otherwise, how could she face him, how could she face herself

But this person, has become her heart demon more and more...

Slowly reaching out, she grasped the fruit knife on the bedside table. With a *slight* metallic click, the blade flashed in the darkness, inching closer to his neck... but her hand trembled violently.

Her wide eyes welled with tears, but she still trembled, gripping the fruit knife tightly, leaning towards the sleeping man.

Her hand, trembling violently out of control, shook more and more as she got closer.

Little child, pierce it, pierce it, and everything will end!

Little kid, what are you still hesitating about!

Little Jian Tong, haven't you forgotten who brought you suffering Who made you a dog in human form Who humiliated you to the point of utter shame

Jan Toddler, quick! Pierce! Pierce!! Pierce!!!

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Tap!

The blade fell, and she hastily retracted it. She glanced at the sleeping man, not daring to wake him.

With his eyes closed, his right hand still gripped the fruit knife tightly, as if he would crush it.

Large, heavy tears rolled “plink, plink” down from tightly shut eyes.

She couldn't control her tears, just as she couldn't control the trembling hand clutching the knife... What was so terrifying

Anyway, you already have a life on your back What's the harm in adding another one

Why can't it go in!

Useless! Useless!! Useless!!!

A flash of determination crossed her eyes, then she glanced around at the people beside her. She wouldn't give up. She wasn't useless. She didn't care!

The knife hung above the sleeping man's head once more. Jian Tong took a deep breath. She said she didn't care, that if he died she would be free. But she couldn't bring herself to do it. Her hand trembled, hating her own weakness. The knife in her hand felt like a burning hot potato. In panic, she threw the knife away!

She covered her face and cried in a muffled voice. She hated, hated her own incompetence, hated her reluctance.

She hates that she can't do it!

The sound of the knife hitting the ground woke the man beside her.

"What's wrong Why are you crying" Shen Xiujin hurriedly sat up and reached out to hug Jian Tong, but the latter reflexively swatted his hand away.

"After waving it away, I realized something was off and explained, 'I had a nightmare.'"

The man let out a breath of relief, "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, I'm here." He hugged her and tucked her back under the covers, coaxing her like a child, while the woman beneath him actually let out a soft snore in this lulling sleep.

Maybe she was truly tired. This was the first time, since they'd started sharing a bed, that she had actually fallen asleep.

The man's dark eyes landed precisely on the fruit knife tucked away in the corner of the wall. His black pupils flickered, he lowered his eyelids, switched off the light, and lay down, pulling the woman in his arms closer.nds... No, no! Her ID card was in his hands, she couldn't buy plane tickets, high-speed train tickets, or long-distance bus tickets. Just as Shen Yi was about to leave, the man in front of the compute...